“I promise you that the same stuff galaxies are made of, you are. The same energy that swings planets around stars makes electrons dance in your heart. It is in you, outside you, you are it. It is beautiful. Trust in this. And your life will be grand.” -Kamal Ravikant
What if life is not actually about shaping and creating ourselves, but rather a process of shedding and releasing until we remember that we are, and always have been, complete? Does this ring true to you?
I know it does for me.
I’ve always thought that life is about building myself up and collecting skills, traits, and accomplishments until I reach this place where I feel whole and complete. While this is true to a small degree, I had this crazy moment the other morning that filled me without the utmost sense of peace and connection. It was really wild and seemed to come from an inner knowing.
I was laying in bed after just waking up and my mind immediately kicked into high gear, as it always tends to do. What do I need to do today? I hope I didn’t say the wrong thing yesterday. What should I have for breakfast? Shoot, did I cancel that doctor’s appointment!? I wonder if the cat box needs to be changed. What in the eff am I actually doing with my life? Am I doing this thing right? Am I?! My thoughts were off to the races, twisting and turning into dark crevices and down meandering rivers.
I caught myself in this cyclone of thoughts and just yelled in my mind, “STOP!” and took a huge, deep breath, filling up the space below my ribs with a pillow of air and then letting it swiftly exit through my mouth.
At that moment, the words “I am Love” forcefully popped into my head. It almost seemed to come from an outside source. Outside me, but inside me all at once. The anxiety that I had just been feeling melted and I was encompassed by this unreal sense of tranquility and ease.
I sat there and relished the moment for several seconds…and then promptly said, “Whoa, what the hell was that?”
Just as quick as the feeling came, it slithered off into the abyss, leaving me wondering if what just happened actually happened.
I thought about that moment throughout the rest of the day and realized that for that moment, those several seconds of peace, I experienced the truth. The truth within myself. The truth within all of us.
I believe that at our cores, we are all love. I also believe that we are all born knowing that the love at our core is the truth of the Universe. The problem is, through experience and story and trials and labels, we lose sight of this truth.
Our minds pick up on our life experiences and start to dupe us. Our minds tell us that we don’t deserve that all encompassing kind of love, from ourselves or others. That we’re not special enough, pretty enough, smart enough, talented enough, cool enough. That in order to receive love we must try, and then try even harder. We must fight for it, we must make ourselves as good as humanely possible if we are to be worthy of love. We try to eat our way to love, drink our way to love, label our way to love, climb our way to love. But somehow, no matter what we achieve, it’s never enough.
What if this love doesn’t need to be chased? What if this love is available within us all and all we have to do is go inside ourselves to find it?
What if reconnecting with this love within us all is the thing that makes us complete?
What if instead of competing, drinking, eating, working, striving, perfecting our way to love we just close our eyes, breathe deeply, and remember instead?
The more I work on shedding illusions and false stories from my life, the more I’m discovering my ability to connect to this place deep within my chest that knows.
It’s a drastic shift, to go from constantly striving to constantly shedding. From feeling lost to feeling connected. From not knowing to knowing.
We all have this love inside of us. We were born with it. It’s ours and it can never be taken away. Every experience we go through is trying to help us remember this. I believe that our work on this earth is to remember this. To remember that we are all love.
I caught a glimpse of it the other day, and let me tell you, it was beautiful.
My suggestion to you is to go within yourself. Dig into your past and your current life and let go of some of the baggage you’ve been carrying. Shine some light on your darkness and embrace it. Take an honest look at some of the stories you’ve been telling yourself and expose them as the lies they are. Write it all down and then tear it up. Sit in a quiet place where you feel good, close your eyes, and just breathe deeply. Repeat in your head the words “I am love” with each breath.
Soon you will start to remember.